You and me.

assalamualaikum wbt.

You. I want you to be here with me. To see the world I am seeing. To feel the wind I am feeling. To hear those beautiful voices I am hearing.

Be with me. I need your presence. To keep me from falling. As I am holding on you.

This agony. It's killing me. I want it to go away. And it will be when you're with me.

Please. Make your reality and my reality become one. I want to be in yours. And I want you to be in mine.

So, come with me. And bring me to the other dimension. Bring me there. And leave all these pain here.

Nikmat demam.

assalamualaikum wbt.

Heh, tak sangka kena virus demam plak dua, tiga hari ni. Mungkin sebab cuaca tak menentu kot. Tambah dengan kena hujan lagi. Terus demam. Satu hari tak boleh buat pape. Asal bangun je kepala pusing-pusing, berdenyut-denyut. Nasib baik tak muntah-muntah je. Ngeri oh kalau muntah. Memang rasa tak selesa je. Tekak pun sakit. Nak cakap memang seksa jugak la. So mute terus untuk satu hari. Tak sanggup nak cakap sebab sakit.

Bila demam ni, teringat lah nikmat time sehat. Takdelah terbaring je atas katil, tiap tujuh jam kena telan ubat, makan apa pun takde selera. Makan apa pun rasa sama je. Tawar dan pahit. Itulah, manusia. Time susah baru teringat time senang.

Dan alangkah nikmatnya kalau ada kat rumah time-time sakit ni. For sure adik-adik kesayangan pasrah je jadi kuli kakak kesayangan diorang nih. Hekhek. Dan, oh. Nikmat sungguh kalau dapat nasi air time-time camni.

*Syukur Tuhan, Kau masih memberi aku nikmat sakit. Sebagai peringatan untuk aku. Sesungguhnya nikmatMu sungguh luas.

Dear my roommate,

assalamualaikum wbt.

Get well soon! I am missing your usual self. Cepat-cepat sembuh then gelak kuat-kuat untuk saya ye. Rindu tahu sume benda tu. :)

Cerita love. Cerita hati.

assalamualaikum wbt.

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?

Syg, to love, you cannot be afraid. If you are afraid, then it will not happen. In love, you have to take the risks. Yeah, I know taking the risk is a lotttt to take. But, wouldn't it be sweet if it works? If it doesn't work, then there will be something more waiting for you ahead. ALLAH SWT sayang pada hamba-hambaNYA. Teramat sayang. Kita, manusia ni je yang kadang-kadang lupa akan hakikat tu. Apa yang diberi, dikurniakanNYA itu ada hikmahnya. Walau pahit mana pun ia, tetap akan ada kemanisan di sebaliknya.

Perfect love. Does it exist? As for me, no, it doesn't. Why? Because people are not perfect. Love. When there is love, there will be a relationship. Be it husband-wife, friends, family, etc people who are in the relationship will never be perfect hence there is no perfect love. But, there is true love. Where the people in it complement each other. The presence of one person complete the other. We cannot find perfect people. But, we can find people who make us perfect with his/her presence. And it will be a true love. Ingat senang nak terima orang lain sekali dengan pakej baik buruk dia? Susah tahu? Tapi kalo kau boleh terima, kau cukup power untuk dapat true love itu.

Accept the other the way he/she is. In the end you will find out that he/she makes you complete with his/her strength. And you yourselves make his/her weakness becomes nothing with your own strength.

And, we, women, need to be wooed. It doesn't have to be big, complicated things. Simple good nights and good mornings, if done with heart, is more than enough to touch our hearts. :)

*topik yang merupakan sumber inspirasi dari isi chat dengan one of my best-est friend.

Ayam.

Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku
Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku
Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta
Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja
Ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya
Ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku
Ini tidak adil untuk kau bertanya jika ku mencintaimu juga
Tidak adik tidak adil baginya
Kau tak pernah cuba memahami aku
Cinta kau ucap tak pernah engkau tunjuk
Dan bila tiba saat ku kehilangan
Beban yang tak pernah kau cuba ringankan

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Dia bersamamu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku

*And I have been a freaking coward. Who can't really say what's in her mind. Can you decipher my mind? Oh, you can't, can you? Guess I have to tell you by myself then. But, how?