Have you ever wonder?

assalamualaikum wbt. 

Kadang-kadang ada rasa pelik tak, bila kawan yang dah lama kita kenal, yang kita ingat kita dah paham dia. Kita pun anggap dia paham kita, tapi at times when we need them the most, diorang takde? Kalau kita ada masalah, kita tanggung sorang-sorang. Bila kita bad mood, they don't take the liberty of asking, what's wrong? Bila kita sedih, tiada bahu yang dioffer. 

Tapi, ada kawan yang baru kita kenal. Kadang-kadang tak sampai seminggu. Tapi kita rasa macam dia dekat sangat dengan kita. Hampir boleh paham kita macam dah kenal lima tahun. Boleh tahu kegemaran. Boleh tahu kebencian. Yang akan risau gila dekat kita. 

Yes, I am a loner. I work best alone. And I like it that way. I often tell people to be safe. To tell me once they reach home from visiting/dropping me off. But, I've never experienced the situation where there're people who anxious about me when I am not updating them at what time I've arrived home from visiting them. I always give the favour but it seems strange to be returned the favour. I was stunned, yes and I was touched. 

Oh ya, I am boarding on an emotional roller-coaster thus this emotional post. 

Tapi aku nak cakap. Aku sangat bertuah ditemukan dengan kamu, kamu dan kamu. Moga persahabatan kita diberkatiNya sentiasa. 

Aku sayang korang. 

I'll be damned.

assalamualaikum wbt.

Awak, ye kita boleh simply bukak buku baru. Tapi apa yang berlaku dulu takkan berhenti hantui saya. Saya tak rasa saya boleh. Because for me, that single action will means a lot to me. It is not merely a meeting. It's like you're giving me a hope. A hope to hope. I don't want that. Because I simply tired of hoping. I've been a silly girl once and I am certain I don't wanna be a silly girl twice. 

It might be a single meeting for you. Perhaps it means nothing for you. While for me, it might bring everything up again. Oh, I couldn't afford the feelings again. Those goddamn feelings. 

Ahh, I am screwed. For being in this situation alone.*sigh*

Vaccination.

assalamualaikum wbt. 

It has been a debate recently in virtual world regarding the issue of vaccination. I am not yet a mother hence I still do not have my solid opinion regarding this issue. 

However, I've came across an episode in Law & Order: SVU where a baby died because she'd gotten exposed to an unvaccinated toddler. The toddler parent stand by her decision to not vaccinate her child due to the risk of fatality. 

The baby died because her body's immune system still not able to fight the disease as she is still too young. I still remember what the DA said, "It is clearly your choice for to or not to vaccinate your child. However, it is too the community's rights to not being exposed to your unvaccinated child as he might be a carrier of a disease." More or less la. Tak ingat dah exact word. 

Hence, what is your choice? To or not to vaccinate your child?

I love you.

I love it when you are here, beside me.

I love it when you tell me how your day goes.

I love it when we can talk on and on about our favorite TV shows. Movies too.

I love it even more when we can talk about our favorite songs.

I love it when you tell me something I do not know.

I love doing things with you.

I love being crazy with you.

I love seeing the true you.

I love being your muse. And you are mine.

I love sitting side by side. And saying nothing.

I love everything about you. And I love you.

Random night/morning.

assalamualaikum wbt.

1. Dah banyak kali dah aku mimpi kau ni. Pehal eh? Tak paham betul.

2. Nak sangat buku Dan Brown tadi. Ah, tunggu BBW lah.

3. Second day. And still, 40-50 km/h.

4. Some assurance might help. Yet there's no sign of it.

5. I've hit rock bottom. I just wanna rise now.

6. Yes, I wanna lose those and these. But, how to?

7. Gosh, I'm just talking rubbish now. Pardon me for those rubbish up there.