Random night/morning.

assalamualaikum wbt.

1. Dah banyak kali dah aku mimpi kau ni. Pehal eh? Tak paham betul.

2. Nak sangat buku Dan Brown tadi. Ah, tunggu BBW lah.

3. Second day. And still, 40-50 km/h.

4. Some assurance might help. Yet there's no sign of it.

5. I've hit rock bottom. I just wanna rise now.

6. Yes, I wanna lose those and these. But, how to?

7. Gosh, I'm just talking rubbish now. Pardon me for those rubbish up there.

Pelangi itu.

Kau tahu?
Hari itu, aku menangis.
Kerna kehilangan kau.
Aku terdampar.
Seolah seluruh sendiku ini telah dilumpuhkan.
Separuh nyawaku hilang.

Dan ketika itu,
Aku mendongak ke langit.
Cuba menjejaki sisa jiwa yang ada.
Ketika itu aku nampak.
Selembar pelangi indah di kaki langit biru.
Semerta itu aku tahu.
Yang aku akan baik-baik sahaja.

With Me

by Sum 41

I don't want this moment to ever end,
Where everything's nothing without you.
I'd wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I've made my mistakes.

I stumble and fall, but I mean these words.

I want you to know,

With everything I won't let this go.

These words are my heart and soul.

I'll hold on to this moment, you know,

As I bleed my heart out to show,

And I won't let go.

Thoughts read, unspoken, forever in vow,

And pieces of memories fall to the ground.

I know what I didn't have, so I won't let this go,

'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone,

With nowhere to go, have come to an end.

I want you to know,

With everything I won't let this go.

These words are my heart and soul.

I'll hold on to this moment, you know,

As I bleed my heart out to show,

And I won't let go.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,

When you don't know what you're looking to find.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,

When you just never know what you will find.

I don't want this moment to ever end,

Where everything's nothing without you.

I want you to know,

With everything I won't let this go.

These words are my heart and soul.

I'll hold on to this moment, you know,

As I bleed my heart out to show,

And I won't let go.

I want you to know,

With everything I won't let this go.

These words are my heart and soul.

I'll hold on to this moment, you know,

As I bleed my heart out to show,

And I won't let go.

*I hope I am strong enough to not letting you go.  Unfortunately, I am not. 

Ghost of You.

"Lagu seterusnya ialah Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance. Hani, this song's for you." 

Dan aku tersenyum pada ketika Alif melantunkan suaranya menzahirkan bait-bait lirik yang sentiasa bermain di telingaku. 'Ah, you know me too well Alif.'

At the end of the world

Or the last thing I see

You are

Never coming home 

Never coming home

Could I? Should I?

And all the things that you never told me 

And the smiles that are never ever

Ever...

"Awak, saya tak boleh berjanji untuk menyayangi awak seumur hidup saya. Tapi saya pinta denganNYA agar kasih dan cinta saya sentiasa bersama awak."

"Dan saya juga tidak dapat berjanji untuk sentiasa bersama awak. Tapi saya minta izinNYA agar DIA reserve tempat saya di samping awak sentiasa."

"Eh, apa pulak bersaya-awak ni. Dah halal dah pun. Hani, panggil Alif abanglah! Haish, dah menikah pun malu-malu lagi ke?"

"Aaaaa Abang Long! Suka hati kitoranglah!" Aku menyahut gurauan abang sulung aku, Hazim dengan muka yang merah sambil bingkas ke dapur. Perlakuanku itu disambut dengan gelak tawa mereka yang berada di ruang tamu serta Alif yang tersenyum-senyum. 

"Alif, jaga adik aku tu elok-elok."

"In syaa ALLAH Hazim. Adik kawan baik aku, mestilah aku jaga baik-baik. Kalau tak naya aku kena terajang dengan kau." 

"Haha. Tahu pun! Tapi tak sangka jodoh adik aku tu dengan kau. Rupanya DIA anugerahkan jodoh yang sangat dekat untuk Hani. Siapa sangka kan?"

"Haah. Siapa sangka." 

Dari sudut sebelah peti ais, aku nampak Alif tersenyum dengan matanya fokus padaku. Dan aku balas dengan senyuman paling manis buat Alif, lelaki yang sudah empat jam sah menjadi suami aku. 

La la la~

assalamualaikum wbt.

I wanna write but I can't seem to put those lightbulbs in my head into words. They just hanging there and scattered everywhere. Urgh, macam nak berak tapi takleh keluar.

Lagipun tengah sakit rumah. Rindu rumah dan lagi rindu orang-orang di rumah.