Ghost of You - MCR

I never said I'd lie and and wait forever
If I died we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever

Ever
Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me

Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall
If I fall
(Down)

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna

*oh dear sweet ghost, please do come and haunt me. :)

Thanks much.

salam.

Everything happens for a reason. Instead of sadness, happiness will come.

Thousands of thanks to everyone. Kak Wani n Kak Sab yang sanggup dengar cite fana. Roomate, Husna yang sabar je ngan fana sebab terbangun pagi2 terkejut fana wat hal then lepas tu dengar cite fana. Nani yang sanggup kol dari London. Seyesly aku terharu Nani. Chapid yang sanggup tido lambat sebab jadi pendengar setia fana. Sya yang bagi banyak kata2 perangsang. Awien yang tak jadi tido bile fana bukak cite. Abg Sholleh jugak yang sabar je ngan fana. Abg Pingu yang ceriakan hati fana. Ha yang bagi banyak nasihat. Furqan yang terlebih geram bila fana cite. Takpe, nanti kite belasah die sampai separuh mati ea hee. Aznan yang banyak bagi nasihat at the same time brainwash fana jgk. Dan mungkin kawan2 lain yang menyokong secara senyap(ada ke?prasanlah aku ni. haha :D)

Terima kasih. Sekalung penghargaan diberikan.

And for you, you clearly don't deserve me. I can't believe I let u hurt me over and over again. But now, ALLAH SWT had opened my eyes. Syukran Ya ALLAH. He never deserves me even from the start. I deserve someone waaaaayyy better. InsyaALLAH.

*haih, xabis ag perasaan nak shopping ni..huu

...

salam.

How I wish I can get time to move faster so that I do not have to be in this process. The process is so hard that dying is not painful enough rather than this.

I never know that u can be this cruel. Seems like the person I used to know has been dead. U've changed.

But why u still want to act like nothing happened? U keep telling me that u wanna be friends. U keep posting on my fb walls. When I deleted it u asked me why. Oh, helloooo! Please be sensible. I am trying to let go but u're making things even harder. Maybe u have forgotten about everything but I'm not. How am I supposed to forget everything in a month?

I cried my eyes out. I cried till I barely can open my eyes. But, bear in mind. I cried not because I want u back. I cried because I felt so stupid. Soo stupid for letting u do this to me.

So please. Go away. Don't ever come back. And I hope I won't see u again. Ever. And get the hell outta my mind too.

...

salam.

Kalau tak hendak katakan tak hendak. Jangan berdolak dalik mengatakan itu ini.
Kelak memakan diri. Juga orang di sekeliling.
Usah pandai mengatakan maaf jika tidak sebetulnye bermaksud begitu.
Kelak memakan diri. Juga orang di sekeliling.
Usahlah memujuk jika hati tidak rela.
Kelak memakan diri. Juga orang di sekeliling.

Sudahlah. Pergilah dikau jauh-jauh. Usah kembali lagi. Selepas ini dan selamanya.

*how am I supposed to forget everything? 4 years is not 4 days dude.

please please please. please stop breaking my heart again and again.

Bila mata dah layu...

salam.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~

Comel sangat la mamat ni. Sangat suka tengok die senyum. Adorable sangat. Muka die tak la hensem kan tapi sangat adorable!

Start tengok die dalam series My Girlfriend is a Gumiho. Terus rasa die comel. Pastu kat umah tengok plak realiti show KBS, 2 Days 1 Night. Lagila rasa macam kyaaaa~ :P

Btw,nama die Lee Seunggi. :)

*nice konsep realiti show 2 Days 1 Night. diorang guna selebriti untuk promote tempat2 menarik kat Korea. Malaysia taknak buat ke? rasanya better buat rancangan macam ni dari realiti show nyanyian tu. at least bole generate income negara kan?
*isi post takde kaitan dengan tajuk. huu

Friends

salam.

Kesian kat blog ni. Tuan dia ade penyakit angin kus-kus. Ada 'angin' nak update, die update. Kalau 'angin' tu melayang dihembus bayu, blog ni pun bersawang la. Sori ea Encik Blog. hee

But since now I've get the 'angin' to scribble some tiny things here, I am sure u won't be bersawang anymore Encik Blog. At least for a while :P

I don't have much in my mind right now but I still wanna write something here. Err, let me think for a sec, ok?

..................................................

Ok, I've got something!

Everybody has friends, don't they? Friends kind of important to every one of us. Even if u don't have real friends, u'll have parents, brothers, sisters, lover, or even your pets who/which will always be by your side and that's what friends do.

Friends, they will never doubt u, correct u when u're wrong, stand for u, make u feel good and the most important, they will believe u and be there when u need a shoulder to lean on or to cry on. Friend in need is a friend indeed, ever heard this before peeps?

Well, regarding the little accident I had recently, I've gotta say friends are the one that make me feel that I am a star instead of whatever happens, well maybe a bit exaggerating but u got my point right?

I felt hopeless, ashamed, embarrassed, and whatnot. Then one day while I was online, I've got a buzz from a brother that I haven't contacted or spoken of for a quite long time. He doesn't say anything, but a simple "Assalamualaikum, still pakai number lama?" has brighten my day. Then we chatted for a while. Stop because I have to do my chores and continue texting at the night.

I don't know why but maybe because of the power of simple sentence, I've got myself back. I began to sing happy songs again and I started laughing out loud with my little sisters again. And then today, I've got a little girls' outing with my girlfriends. And that really lightens me up. A big, fat thanks I give to my sweet Una and my honey Nani. Although it was only 3,4 hours outing, it means bigggggg to me. Thanks much. :)

Thank you, thank you and thank you. For those who cared, for those who asked. I never asked for those. I don't need your sympathy or empathy or whatever. But I want all my friends out there know that I am grateful for having such an awesome friends. And yeah, I'm awesome too*oh how I miss u, Barney Stinson* :P

*turns out, a best friend is not really best friend anymore. I found this out too.

Glee.

salam.

Well, life is kinda hard to me these days. However, without hard days easy days won't be sweet ayte? So I get to move on and live my life at the fullest again.

During my so-called gloomy days, I watched the tv series, Glee. I didn't want to watch it at first but I've got the series from my cousin so having it stocked in my hard drive it will be such a waste if I don't watch it rite? Thus, I watched the series. The Pilot, well, I don't seem to be captivated much but somehow I moved on to the next episode. And that's when I've got the hooked feeling.

Therefore, there I am. Watching it episodes by episodes, back to back. And I tell u, this series help me to move on. There are so many lessons learnt, so many useful advices in it. And u've got to listen to the songs too. Lovely, isn't it?

I am always a big fan to musicals. There is one song that I like. It is a Christmas song though(because it was sung in Christmas episode but I really hope it is not a Christmas song as the lyrics doesn't have anything related to the holiday) but I find the lyrics is beautiful. "Baby,it's cold outside." Beautiful song, really. Although by the fact it was sung by two gay people. :P

salam.

Patutlah counter kat bawah tu tak nak gerak. Berhenti terus kat 3 years, 8 months and 1 day. Rupanya ada petanda.


People asked, are you okay? and I'd say, I'm coping. But, eventually it is not easy to move on alone when you used to be double for nearly four years. Anyway, wish me luck ya?